Enlightened

Oh how I struggled with the spelling of that title.

Anyways, after some research I have realized
what a genius Damien Rice really is. If my old
songs ever come back, I'll hunt for more.

Tear down this wall

---
"General Secretary Gorbachev, if you
seek peace, if you seek prosperity for
the Soviet Union and Eastern Europe,
if you seek liberalization, come here to
this gate. Mr. Gorbachev, open this gate.
Mr. Gorbachev, tear down this wall!"
---
- Ronald Reagan, 1987 by the Berlin Wall

New Year is my favorite time of celebration.
A time for change and good food, nice people
and fireworks.

My Damien Rice songs ran away. If you have
seen anything suspicious, let me know.
They looked something like this.

While awaiting their return, have one by
The Offspring.

Off to sweden

It seems I don't need the distraction of a blog when
there are no more exams, but I'll try to keep writing
anyways. I'm so excited for Sweden and eventually
New Year. I'm also getting ready for skiing, walking
in the cold, and seeing relatives! I'll miss m'laysia,
but I will be back in not too long :)

Somewhere in the rain

I finally finally finished my exams.
The effect of the alliteration in line 1
is to emphasize the feeling of freedom.

Sadly we have to go to school tomorrow
as well, just don't want to get up early one
more time.

Well my day turned out a bit differently than
planned, but at least I got some head shots.

Winter dreams

I have this almost idealistic picture of winter in my mind.
A cold evening in Sweden, light snowfall,
a black coat. With my new found Bon Iver,
nothing can stop me.

Almost done, almost there

I'm back from the dead. Sure there are two more to go
but nothing can kill me after those math exams xD

Came across a quite interesting song yesterday,
have a look :)

Longing

I can't wait to be done with this crap.
Only two more days and exams.
I can see the light!

Joker and the thief

I found my will, at the bottom of a well.
With only 4 more exams to go,
I hope it will come back up soon.

3, 2, 1... And we are back!

Due to some technical (not really) difficulties I
had to switch user account. Now it's back with
a different name but the same original recipe!

If anyone wishes for a new layout, please let me know.

Greetings from starbucks

In my preferred future life
breakfast at starbucks
will be a common ingredient.

For everyone interested, I'm
having a banana chocolate chip
muffin and hot chocolate, to get
ready for the math study group :)

Ponyo, ponyo ponyo :)

Okay I just have to share this,
probably the cutest thing ever xD

I like how the guy to the right is
doing absolutely nothing worthwhile

4 down, 7 more to go

Just finished English today, awesome :)

Same same

Roosevelt or Wilson, what does it matter?
There are so many things we don't know,
Sometimes we don't know what is worth knowing.
Sometimes we think we want to know, but then we don't.

Once I had a guitar, now all I have is a dream.

For the sake of being less emo, I have 3 down, 8 more to go.

This one is dedicated to Mr. Munro :)

Is there anybody... out there?

Hang in there, I'm working on a new blog post :)

Isn't it funny how we always seem to crave for what we don't have?

Also, is there such a thing as "necessary" tension?

Lastly, while waiting on something better, have a song from Twilight.

Blackout

So, I'm confused.. 

So what?!

Out of randomness

The world is white during winter but black at night. Just like the stars, we all seem to be waiting for something. There are too many people writing books about how to write a book. If they are so good at it, why don't they write about something else? The only thing we really care about is to have something to care about. Generosity without personal gain does not exist. We are all fools and will be treated as such. I would never stop myself from doing something I want to. Life is to live, do it like you mean it. This is probably the happiest moment in my life, I won't waste it on physics. The Arctic is the top of the world, there is no bottom. Emotions are for morons, possess them and they will let you down.

Just so you know

Radio is for lonely people.

I have seen hell...

... It is white, silent, air conditioned and
located at the bottom floor of our school.

~Do you see any concentric circles?~

On a brighter side;
I'M DONE AND READY FOR SUMMER!
Good night.

Memories

I'm walking in the rain
yuku ate mo naku kizutsuita karada nurashi
karamitsuku koori no zawameki
koroshi tsuzukete samayou itsu made mo
Until I can forget your love

nemuri wa mayaku tohou ni kureta
kokoro o shizuka ni tokasu
mai agaru ai o odorasete
furueru karada o kioku no bara ni tsutsumu
I keep my love for you to myself

Endless rain, fall on my heart kokoro no kizu ni
Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me
You're just an illusion
When I'm awaken, my tears have dried in the sand of sleep
I'm a rose blooming in the desert

It's a dream, I'm in love with you
madoromi dakishimete

I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over
koe ni naranai kotoba o kurikaeshite mo
takasugiru hai iro no kabe wasugi satta hi no
omoi o yume ni utsusu
Until I can forget you love

Endless rain, let me stay
evermore in your heart
Let my heart take in your tears, take in your memories

----
By X Japan

Until the day I die

ame no hi ni wa kimi wo omotte
todokanu kono omoi dakishimete
kodoku na melody ni nose
amaoto wo yoru made kazoe

doushite omoidasu no ka
chiisana goro kiita kanashii uta

kono mune wa itsumo ame furi de
kimi wa yure nagara kasunderu
demo koe wa ima mo furueteru kimi no tame ni

doushite namida ga deru no sunao sugita kara minna kitto
doushite motometsuzukete demo owari ni shiyou

kono mune wa itsumo ame furi de
kimi wa yure nagara kasunderu
itsumademo kitto furueteru hateru hi made

ah...todokanaide hoshii utsukushii mama
ah...todokanaide hoshii kanashimi ni
ah...todokanaide hoshii kanata e
----

Why do I suddenly remember
A melancholy tune I heard long ago?

My heart doesn't stop raining
And you're swaying and fading
But my voice still wavers
...just for you

What are all these tears for?
We were all probably too pure...
Why did we long for each other so much?
But let's end it right here and now...

My heart won't stop raining
And you're swaying and fading
But my voice will sing for you forever...
...until the day I die


I don't want desolation to reach you
I don't want it to reach your beauty
I don't want you to go away...
----
By Luna Sea

Kurenai

Watching Hide Memorial Summit 2008
as a nice conclusion on a wonderful weekend.
I love you guys, I really do.
Plus, my guitar is simply so much more fun
with its lovely strap :)

~Endless rain fall on my heart~

I also unexpectedly got to see a teacher
from last year, who I missed much.

~I'm calling you, dear
Can't you see me standing right here?~

Something Yoshiki wrote for Hide;

I'm tired of walking.
I stand in the night,
while superimposing tears
on my memory.
The number of encounter
equals that of farewell,
but I believed
eternal time would last.
Even words that hurt each other,
I'm now holding.
Every time I look back,
I feel alone.

How should I love you,
How could I feel you,
without you?
Countless memories
fill this moment to the full.

We were born and encountered
each other in the same age,
to confirm each one's love.
I still remember the days
we were seeking dream
in the answer-less tomorrow.
Toward the limitless expanse of sky,
I ask again
why I was born,
why I now live.
To live is sometimes hard,
so I made me indirect.

I loved you.
I was hurt by you.
Then, I realized the profundity of
the word "love."
Do you remember
the day we first met,
the time we had the same dream?
Toward the limitless expanse of sky,
I ask again
why I was born,
why I now live.

How should I love you,
How could I feel you,
without you?
Endless love song,
now, to you...

---
Without You - Yoshiki & Toshi, for Hide

I'd love to change the world

Give me that coat, and I'll do anything >.<

-
Everywhere is freaks and hairies
Dykes and fairies, tell me where is sanity
Tax the rich, feed the poor
Till there are no rich no more?

I'd love to change the world
But I don't know what to do
So I'll leave it up to you

Population keeps on breeding
Nation bleeding, still more feeding economy
Life is funny, skies are sunny
Bees make honey, who needs money, monopoly

I'd love to change the world
But I don't know what to do
So I'll leave it up to you

World pollution, there's no solution
Institution, electrocution
Just black and white, rich or poor
Them and us, stop the war

I'd love to change the world
But I don't know what to do
So I'll leave it up to you
----
By Ten Years After

Destruction, madness, creation

So I think it's finally time to
advertise my all time favorite song,
Art of Life by X Japan.
Until two weeks ago, the band only
performed it twice; in Tokyo Dome,
the 30 and 31 of December 1993.
To be honest, I still believe this video
from the 31th is the best recording made,
both musically and visually.

-
Desert Rose
Why do you live alone
If you are sad
I'll make you leave this life
Are you white, blue or bloody red
All I can see is drowning in cold gray sand

The winds of time
You knock me to the ground
I'm dying of thirst
I wanna run away
I don't know how to set me free to live
My mind cries out feeling pain

I've been roaming to find myself
How long have I been feeling endless hurt
Falling down, rain flows into my heart
In the pain I'm waiting for you
Can't go back
No place to go back to
Life is lost, Flowers fall
If it's all dreams
Now wake me up
If it's all real
Just kill me


I'm making the wall inside my heart
I don't wanna let my emotions get out
It scares me to look at the world
Don't want to find myself lost in your eyes
I tried to drown my past in gray
I never wanna feel more pain
Ran away from you without saying any words
What I don't wanna lose is love

Through my eyes
Time goes by like tears
My emotion's losing the color of life
Kill my heart
Release all my pain
I'm shouting out loud
Insanity takes hold over me

Turning away from the wall
Nothing I can see
The scream deep inside
reflecting another person in my heart
He calls me from within
"All existence you see before you
must be wiped out:
Dream, Reality, Memories,
and Yourself"

I begin to lose control of myself
My lust is so blind, destroys my mind
Nobody can stop my turning to madness
No matter how you try to hold me in your heart
Why do you wanna raise these walls
I don't know the meaning of hatred
My brain gets blown away hearing words of lies
I only want to hold your love

Stab the dolls filled with hate
Wash yourself with their blood
Drive into the raging current of time
Swing your murderous weapon into the belly
"the earth"
Shout and start creating confusion
Shed your blood for pleasure
And what? For love?
What am I supposed to do?

I believe in the madness called "Now"
Past and future prison my heart
Time is blind
But I wanna trace my love
on the wall of time, over pain in my heart
Art of life
Insane blade stabbing dreams
Try to break all truth now
But I can't heal this broken heart in pain
Cannot start to live
Cannot end my life
Keep on crying

Close my eyes
Time breathes I can hear
All love and sadness
melt in my heart
Dry my tears
Wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life
outside my walls

You can't draw a picture of yesterday, so
You're painting your heart with your blood
You can't say "No"
Only turning the wheel of time
with a rope around your neck
You build a wall of morality and take a breath
from between the bricks
You make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them
You're trying to commit suicide
You're satisfied with your prologue
Now you're painting your first chapter black
You are putting the scraps of life together
and trying to make an asylum for yourself
You're hitting a bell at the edge of the stage
and
You are trying to kill me

I believe in the madness called "Now"
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart
Wanna live
Can't let my heart kill myself
Still I haven't found what I'm looking for
Art of life
I try to stop myself
But my heart goes to destroy the truth
Tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
Do I try to live?
Do I try to love?
in my dream


I'm breaking the wall inside my heart
I just wanna let my emotions get out
Nobody can stop
I'm running to freedom
No matter how you try to hold me in your world
Like a doll carried by the flow of time
I sacrificed the present moment for the future
I was in chains of memory half-blinded
Losing my heart, walking in the sea of dreams

Close my eyes
Rose breathes I can hear
All love and sadness melt in my heart
Dry my tears
Wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life
outside my mind

Dreams can make me mad
I can't leave my dream
I can't stop myself
Don't know what I am
What lies are truth?
What truths are lies?

I believe in the madness called "Now"
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart
Wanna live
Can't let my heart kill myself
Still I haven't found what I'm looking for
Art of life
I try to stop myself
But my heart goes to destroy the truth
Tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
Do I try to live?
Do I try to love?

Art of life
An Eternal bleeding heart
You never wanna breathe your last
Wanna live
Can't let my heart kill myself
Still I'm feeling for
A Rose is breathing love
in my life
-

I've been trying to keep this blog as clean
as possible from my X Japan obsession.
That didn't work out well.
However, for a more complete introduction,
visit my Myspace dedicated for this purpose.
----
Yoshiki
Toshi
Hide
Pata
Heath

Without you

What can I say...

Without You
Toshi MC
I.V.

Absolutely beautiful, amazing!

Great to see you back together
again, after 10 long years.

Yoshiki, to play Art of Life (A, B) right after
Kurenai maybe wasn't one of your brightest
ideas, but im happy you are okay again.

Toshi, your voice is as good as it was 10 years
ago, and so is your fashion sense. Good to have
you back where you, after all, belong.

For you Hide,

Aruki tsukareta yoru ni tatazumu
Nagareru namida o kioku ni kasanete
Deai no kazu dake wakare wa arukedo
Kagirinai toki ga tuduku to shinjiteta
Kizutsuke atta kotoba sae ima ha dakishime
Furikaerudake
I feel alone

How should I love you
How could I feel you
Without you...
Kazoekire nai omoide ga jikan o umetsukusu

Anata o ashite anata ni kizusuite
Ai to iu kotoba no fukasa ni kizuita
I still remember
Kotate no nai ashita ni yume o motomete ita hibi o

Kagirinaku hirogaru sora ni mou ichido umareta
imi ima o ikiru imi o toikakete

How should I love you
How could I feel you
Without you...
Owari no nai ai no uta o ima anta ni

----
X Japan 2008, Towards Destruction;
28/3 Night of Destruction
29/3 Night of Madness
30/3 Night of Creation

Excluded middle

"Everything is either a banana or not a banana."
-See how simple the world can be :)
(Exception; Schrödinger's Cat, but that's silly)

I had an awesome start on the weekend!
-
Hey you, out there in the cold
Getting lonely, getting old
Can you feel me?
Hey you, standing in the aisles
With itchy feet and fading smiles
Can you feel me?
Hey you, don't help them to bury the light
Don't give in without a fight.

Hey you, out there on your own
Sitting naked by the phone
Would you touch me?
Hey you, with you ear against the wall
Waiting for someone to call out
Would you touch me?
Hey you, would you help me to carry the stone?
Open your heart, I'm coming home.

But it was only fantasy.
The wall was too high,
As you can see.
No matter how he tried,
He could not break free.
And the worms ate into his brain.

Hey you, standing in the road
always doing what you're told,
Can you help me?
Hey you, out there beyond the wall,
Breaking bottles in the hall,
Can you help me?
Hey you, don't tell me there's no hope at all
Together we stand, divided we fall.

----
Hey You, Pink Floyd

Waiting for the worms

I would like to congratulate Felixu for his new laptop.
It's awesome.
Even though its a Dell.

-
Ooooh you cannot reach me now,
Ooooh no matter how you try.
Goodbye cruel world, its over.
Walk on by.

Sitting in a bunker,
Here behind my wall,
Waiting for the worms to come.
In perfect isolation,
Here behind my wall,
Waiting for the worms to come.

Waiting, to cut out the deadwood.
Waiting, to clean up the city.
Waiting, to follow the worms.
Waiting, to put on a black shirt.
Waiting, to weed out the weaklings.
Waiting, to smash in their windows and kick in their doors.
Waiting, for the final solution to strengthen the strain.
Waiting, to follow the worms.
Waiting, to turn on the showers and fire the ovens.
Waiting, for the queers and the coons and the reds and the jews.
Waiting, to follow the worms.

Would you like to see Britannia,
Rule again, my friend?
All you have to do is follow the worms.
Would you like to send our colored cousins,
Home again, my friend?
All you need to do is follow the worms.

----
Pink Floyd

The last song

Watching the stars till they're gone
Like an actor all alone
Who never knew the story he was in
Who never knew the story ends.
Like the sky reflecting my heart
All the colors become visible
When the morning begins
I'll read the last line

Owaranai ame dakishimeta yoru ga asa o mukaeru
Kokoro wa mada nureta mama

In endless rain I've been walking
Like a poet feeling pain
Trying to find the answers
Trying to hide the tears
But it was just a circle
That never ends
When the rain stops, I'll turn the page
The page of the first chapter
Kizutsuku dake kizutsuite wakatta hazu no kotae o
Doushite mada toi kaketeru
Am I wrong to be hurt
Am I wrong to feel pain
Am I wrong to be in the rain
Am I wrong to wish the night won't end
Am I wrong to cry
But I know, It's not wrong to sing The Last Song
Cause forever fades

Kigatsukeba mata hikari-yoru no sora o mitsumeteru
Sukoshi-zutsu kiete yuku our memories
Kizutsuku dake kizutsuite wakatta hazu no kotae o
Doushite mada toi kaketeru

I see red
I see blue
But the silver lining gradually takes over
When the morning begins
I'll be in the next chapter

Owaranai ame dakishimeta yoru ga asa o mukaeru
Kokoro wa mada nureta mama
Kizutsuku dake kizutsuite wakatta hazu no kotae o
Doushite mada toi kaketeru
----
The Last Song, X Japan

The wall

-
I wanna go home,
Take off this uniform and leave the show,
But I'm waiting here in this cell because I have to know,
Have I been guilty all this time?
-

I believe the one thing my blog has been
missing is a complete list of the songs
from Pink Floyd's concert "The Wall".
So here it comes, thanks to Domokon.
I highly recommend you to watch it,
symbolic and powerful as it is.

How the stage bit by bit is hidden behind
bricks, until finally a great white wall
divides the audience from the band.
How they then play two songs completely
behind The Wall, which is later to be used
as a screen for the projections.
It's pure genius!
-
In The Flesh?
The Thin Ice
Another Brick In The Wall (Part 1)
The Happiest Days Of Our Lives
Another Brick In The Wall (Part 2)
Mother
Goodbye Blue Sky
Empty Spaces
What Shall We Do Now
Young Lust
One Of My Turns
Don't Leave Me Now
Another Brick In The Wall (Part 3)
The Last Few Bricks
Goodbye Cruel World
Hey You
Is There Anybody Out There
Nobody Home
Vera
Bring The Boys Back Home
Comfortably Numb
The Show Must Go On
Master of Ceremonies
In the Flesh
Run Like Hell
Waiting for the Worms
Stop
The Trial
Outside the Wall

----
Enjoy

Goodbye (part 2)

Okay I admit it, I lost the battle of Facebook.
Jilly can look forward to her lunch tomorrow,
and I'll talk to Toshi about marriage as soon
as I meet him at a concert.
I hope he won't mind.

-
Oooooooo ooo ooo ooooh
Did, did, did, did you see the frightened ones
Did did, did, did you hear the falling bombs
Did did, did, did you ever wonder
Why we had to run for shelter
When the promise of a brave new world
Unfurled beneath a clear blue sky

Oooooooo ooo ooo ooooh
Did did, did, did you see the frightened ones
Did did, did, did you hear the falling bombs
The flames are all long gone
But the pain lingers on
Goodbye blue sky
Goodbye blue sky
Goodbye
Goodbye

----
Congratulations :)

Goodbye

So... Jilly finally capitulated.
Winner? Me of course.
Looking forward to an expensive
lunch, and to attend a nice
wedding; I finally get to meet
Toshi (maybe he'll even let
me try on his coat).

But... I will stay away from
Facebook anyways, it is
messing with my mind.
----
Goodbye Blue Sky - Pink Floyd,
awesome animation.

Bricks

Just like Mitch and Morrie had their Tuesdays,
just like Apple has theirs,
just like that, Friday seem to be the day
at which I update my blog.

~All in all its just another brick in the wall~
Pink Floyd
-
That's right, I'm into Pink Floyd for now.
There is something with me and <90's music.

The Prince consists of many
interesting ideas; I quote:
"Therefore a prince will not
actually need to have all the
qualities previously
mentioned, but he must surely
seem to have them. Indeed,
I would go so far as to say that
having them all and always
conforming to them would be
harmful, while appearing to have
them would be useful."
-Niccolò Machiavelli

----
The Great Gig In The Sky - Pink Floyd

The world has its ways

Don't worry
Everybody in the room notices you
Sit back and relax
The night is early
We are about to overdo it
So come and tell me something
that you've already told me
Cause everybody's heard our lovely stories
I hope that some of them are true

I've been losing lots of keys lately,
I don't know what that means
But maybe I've been better off with things
that can't be locked at all
I've been feeling kind of sea sick lately,
See you reaching to me gonna save me
You were me, I would much rather take the fall

The world has its ways
To quite us down
The world has its ways
To quiet us down comes the rain
Down comes our spirits again
But down comes the strength
To lift us up and then...
-
Been going up when now
For too long
Forget how
To let go
Seems too hard
Too late now
To turn around
The world has its ways
To quite us down
The world has its ways
To quiet us down comes rain
Down comes our spirits again
Down comes the strength
To lift us up and then...
----
Losing Keys, by Jack Johnson

Big Brother

I realized that I find rice and
blank printer paper appealing.
I seem to have a thing for white.

----
Also, Big Brother is watching you.

Ambitions

First tea, then world-domination

----
just so you know.

Air.

~There is something in the Air~

The air today reminds me of Sweden.
A very, very hot summer day in Sweden :)

Amethyst

When you're weary
Feeling small
When tears are in your eyes
I will dry them all

I'm on your side
When times get rough
And friends just can't be found
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

When you're down and out
When you're on the street
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you

I'll take your part
When darkness comes
And pain is all around
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

Sail on Silver Girl,
Sail on by
Your time has come to shine
All your dreams are on their way

See how they shine
If you need a friend
I'm sailing right behind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
----
Bridge Over Troubled Water
- Paul Simon & Art Garfunkel

Gong xi fa cai!
I don't like Chinese new year,
only Chinese are allowed to have fun :(

Looking for a new phone.
Should I get either;
a) T650i (green/aluminum)
b) S500i (black/green)
c) neither
?

Also, found this awesome video.
First piano piece is Es Dur no Piano-sen,
then Amethyst. Both are composed
and performed by Yoshiki.
Great songs, even though I think the
violin is a bit too dominant.

Values and limitations

Highest Values
Personal Freedom
Every Man is Responsible for One's Own Action

Elements of Human Mind
Reason
Spirit
Appetite

Reason is Egoism
Egoism is Pursuit of Self-Interest
Self-Interest is Regard for One's Own Advantage

Spirit is Action

Appetite is Hedonism
Hedonism is Pursuit of Pleasure
Pleasure is Absence of Pain

----
Credit to Mr. O'Day, Felix, and Plato for inspiration

Thank you for waiting

Just a little longer now, there will
be a new post here by tomorrow.
In case I won't be too busy,
which
I highly doubt.

Again, thank you

Finally

----
I’m calling you, dear
Can’t you see me standing right here
Life is bleeding from fear
I will give it straight from my vein.
----
I.V. by X Japan - 2007

Today, the PV preview for I.V.,
a 45 second long evidence that X
lives again, was finally released.
Hit the link, and enjoy!

Justice

Still Alive - Jonathan Coulton:
----
This was a triumph
I'm making a note here:
"Huge success"
It's hard to overstate my satisfaction

Aperture Science
we do what we must because we can
for the good of all of us except for the ones who are dead
but there's no sense crying over every mistake
you just keep on trying until you run out of cake
and the science gets done and you make a neat gun
for the people who are still alive

I'm not even angry
I'm being so sincere right now
even though you broke my heart and killed me
and torn into pieces
and threw every piece into a fire
as they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data make a wonderful line
and we're out of beta, we're releasing on time
so I'm glad I got burned
Think of all the things we learned for the people that are still alive

go ahead and leave me
I think I prefer to stay inside
maybe you'll find someone else to help you
maybe black mesa
that was a joke, haha, fat chance
anyway this cake is great, it's so delicious and moist
look at me still talking, when there's science to do
when I look out there it makes me glad I'm not you
I've experiments to run, there is research to be done
on the people who are still alive

and believe me I am still alive
I'm doing science and I'm still alive
I feel fantastic and I'm still alive
While you are dying I'll be still alive
and when you're dead I'll be still alive
Still alive, still alive
----

Thrasymachus once said,
"you would never find the just man getting the
better of the unjust, but he always gets the worst"

It doesn't work that way. The unjust man would lose
against the society of today, and be punished by it.
There my friends, is a good quality of our civilization.

There are two (or three) new gadgets that I want:
- Macbook Air. Yes it's true, I think I'm converting
to Mac. Shocking, and very, very embarrassing.
- Tenori-On, or alternatively BeatBearing. Imagine
how much fun one could have with one of those.
Too bad the Tenori-On is $1,200.

Just remember: Keep on trying
until you run out of cake :)

Underground wall

So I just got home from another concert at KLCC.
The first part was great and powerful, loved it.
I totally disagreed with the piano piece though,
couldn't see what was so good about it. Sadly, since
I had been looking forward to it. The pianist was
great however, Simon Trpčeski, a genius it seems.

----
The last train is nearly due,
The underground is closing soon,
And in the dark deserted station,
Restless in anticipation,
A man waits in the shadows.

His restless eyes leap and scratch,
At all that they can touch or catch,
And hidden deep within his pocket,
Safe within its silent socket,
He holds a colored crayon.

Now from the tunnels stony womb,
The carriage rides to meet the groom,
And opens wide and welcome doors,
But he hesitates, then withdraws
Deeper in the shadows.

And the train is gone suddenly
On wheels clicking silently
Like a gently tapping litany,
And he holds his crayon rosary
Tighter in his hand.

Now from his pocket quick he flashes,
The crayon on the wall he slashes,
Deep upon the advertising,
A single worded poem comprised
Of four letters.

And his heart is laughing, screaming, pounding
The poem across the tracks rebounding
Shadowed by the exit light
His legs take their ascending flight
To seek the breast of darkness and be suckled by the night.
----
-More timeless music from Simon & Garfunkel.

I'm not much into cars, but I have to say the
Ferrari Enzo is the hottest one I've seen!

So what's this four letter poem? Well I know, but I
won't tell you. Music is about how we interpret it, yeah?

----
A Poem On The Underground Wall

Trialogue

-A modern conversation in philosophy

Gtalk, January 5, 11pm

Me: "And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence."
we live in a world where real communication is rare

Nee: that's funny
we're not communicating "real" right now either

Me: we are
it’s not about the tools used for communication
but about the content

Nee: nooo...
the content won’t be as real as it would be if it was person to person

Me: maybe u r right
maybe the content can become better if we were focused on only one thing
instead of like now, listening to music, chatting and so on

Nee: exactly.
(of course I’m right.)
(I’m not doing the discussion correctly am i?)

Me: haha xD
yes you are?

Nee: oh okay :D

Me: why? :P

Nee: so i can say I’m right
even if I’m not?
hahah

Me: haha sure, if u believe it :P

Nee: yayy!

Me: but have to be open minded, to prove or disprove your point, and u can’t force your point upon others

Nee: lol
I know, but isn’t it more fun to force your points?
haha

Me: xD
u funny :P
so what happens in a world where communication isn’t important
filled up with crappy comments on the net
with no real importance
what happens to the ppl in a world like that?
what happens to relations?

Nee: it would make whining a lot harder

Me: haha
yep I guess

Nee: then people won’t have a true sense of individuality
cause everyone would be "anonymous"
huwaw.
that would be sad

Me: yeah, and individuality seems to be something very important to human
to be able to say that we are important and different
don’t u think?
I’d like to think that I’m different from anyone else
or I see no point in going on

Nee: yep

Me: what do u think? u like to be different, not like anyone else?

Nee: erm.. different can mean lots of things

Me: yeah?

Nee: I wouldn’t want to be so different that I wouldn’t be able to relate to anyone

Me: that’s true...
I have [#] to relate to

Nee: being different and being isolated is... different! lol

Me: yeah
haha
so we could say that ppl want to be different, but still want ppl to be like them?

Nee: yeah so. its like a matter of being different.. with a few other people too

Me: yeah
that’s another thing, ppl needs to feel that they are a part of something bigger, a community, a religion
"No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent."
But sometimes we want to be an island? just to show that we are not dependent on
anyone/anything else
right?
but I think we are, we are flock animals, we need each other
and in a world where everyone is listening to their iPod
that’s not as easy
so we need other ways

Nee: and that’s where communication comes in again... right?

Me: yeah, so what ways do we have to be able to relate to each other, where all "normal" talking seems to be rare

Nee: wow. you're really making me think here
that doesn’t happen often >.<

Me: hahaha xD
well, I think that things like.. YouTube, blogs and so on are ways for us to become individual, to show "this is me" in a anonymous world where that’s not always easy
but i also see that those blogs are filled up with "unimportant" communication
about things, instead of minds

Nee: but blogs aren’t really communication to others
they're more of self release
to talk about things that you may not be able to talk about to anyone for the moment

Me: true.. monologues
so instead you talk to everyone about it?

Nee: could be
or it could be nobody

Me: if you are anonymous that works, but if you are, then how personal is it really?

Nee: blogging could be just some form of release

Me: so u don’t think it has any to do with our will to feel individual?

Nee: it could vary with people

Me: yes true..
so what will happen to the world, how will ppl get to become individual.. or wont we? maybe we just accept the fact we cant anymore..
I wouldn’t like that
what’s the reason of existing if someone else can do the same work as good as we can?

Nee: if everyone in this world is their own individual, the whole concept wouldn’t seem as appealing as it would be
because what’s the point in trying if everyone's also different and "their own"? you won’t be that much recognized or differed either

Me: if everyone is different, then no one is?

Nee: exactly!
:D

Me: so that brings us back to the point, to be different together with other ppl

Nee: yep yep
its like a circle, everything's connected. its not like a rectangle, a rectangle has bumps and little corners. its not FLOWING. (hahahahahahahhhahahahhaahahahahaha sorry. that is from a movie. im not drunk in any way)

Me: hahahahaha
I'm not sure about that xD
so what becomes the problem if we does not have communication, wont everything we are talking about become unimportant? do we even need to talk about important things in our world?

[Inviting “Billy”, “Billy” is a girl]

Me: okay we’ve been talking about communication, how it seems to become rare in our world with relevant communication
how we keep talking about unimportant things
and so the last thing we threw out there was "so what becomes the problem if we does not have communication, wont everything we are talking about become unimportant? do we even need to talk about important things in our world?"
through isolation, communication is lacking, and we have already established that communication is important. and we see this kind of things every day, people are quiet and when talking, it is not about relevant things; "people talking without speaking" Paul Simon wrote, and I think this is part of the problem, we isolate ourselves but without communication we cannot feel in what ways we are different from someone else and in what ways we are similar, Humankind have always been looking for ways to feel important; religion, fame, bizarre opinions, but with a lack of communication, this becomes so much harder.

Billy: well 'people talking without speaking, and people hearing without listening actually accounts for something else (or so I find)
the sense of we communicate - junk
we say stuff that no one cares about and nobody wants to know
so we hear
but we don't actually listen to what is being said
that is communication also?
it could be

Me: yes, so we communicate, in order to show on who we are, but what we say and hear isn’t relevant

Billy: because there is still talking and hearing going on
so it should be communication
relevant communication - no
stuff that is needed - no
stuff that is important – no

Me: there you go, so what happens with all relevant things we could be saying instead, it is drowning in the irrelevant things

Billy: the first thing on the newspaper is something distraught about wars and waste but what do we care about that anymore? we just flick to the comics and read it or the TV page to see what good shows are on the telly
we don't care enough anymore
we have become embedded into the mundane
not cared of what needs to be care about

Me: and I think this is what have happened, how our way to isolate ourselves, and not put value in information, have began to hurt us and our way to think

Billy: haha
because we communicate - but do we really?
we don't because we are not expressing what really needs to be expressed

Me: yes, so is this really harmful for our community?

Billy: it is

Me: how?

Billy: because we start to embed ourselves into things that are irrelevant unnecessary
things that are not needed and we block out things that really matter
like for example
Britney Spears
why on earth do we care about her?
I don't know her ,
you don't know her
the whole world is embedded into watching her life fall to pieces
and being upset over it
crying when she cries
laughing when she laughs
She hasn't even met us
know that we exist
yet we still care over that
Brad Pitt
"I love Brad Pitt"
but HE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW I’M ALIVE
see, doesn't that irk u?

Me: I totally agree, and I think this is one of the greatest problems our society has. Now, what can we do to prevent to become part of it ourselves?

Billy: think outside the box :D
create our own social culture which we can dwell in and learn to love like Morrie and his own culture
what we create for ourselves is better than the “dosh” the world dishes out on our plate

Me: but our society doesn’t really accept if we do like Morrie, we won’t be able to survive, because all what our society is built on; money and success, goes against communication and love, and cannot be combined

Billy: why do you care about society?
why do you want to dwell upon what people think of you
when you don't know how you think of yourself

Me: because we live in it, and cannot survive in it if we don’t follow it
because it cannot be combined with our society of today. do you mean that we should totally ignore our society and create our own, built on all that we believe in, and through that have a society in which we can be happy, but not be accepted in the major society? Maybe that’s the only way

Billy: yes
:)
why do you care about what the major society is doing
money, economy all that jazz
it makes no one happy
everyone is busy thinking about how rich they want to get
and who Britney is going to marry next
why do you even care

Me: but without money, we cannot survive

Billy: I’m not saying that we should totally take ourselves away from money
because we need it to buy stuff -
but
don't dwell on it
why want to become rich
why want stuff that society is making just so that they can become rich
they don't care for you they just want you to buy their junk

Me: if we want to have time for each other, we need money for living, but to get money, we need to work, and thus not have time for each other. do u see what I mean?

Billy: why can't you have time for each other if you work?
my daddy works and he makes time for me

Me: but it is not possible to the same extent

Billy: same extent meaning?

Me: meaning we can’t take all time we want for others, because there are things we need to do to live on

Billy: separation makes the heart grow fonder,
if we do have time - I mean like
24 /7 with someone
wouldn't you get sick of them?
think
about it
if you have a song played and stuck in your head
you get sick of it

Me: but we don’t need to spend 24/7 with only one person
we have many friends

Billy: well

Nee: I disagree
if you truly loved someone, you'd want to spend all your time with them
you wouldn’t get sick of them

Me: and the rest of the time might be needed for us to get to understand ourselves?

Billy: think society - "I love you, marry me" - "I hate you, lets divorce"

Me: another problem, our will to reach perfect life
even though that might not be possible

Billy: :) perfection isn't possible
only God is perfect
the perfect live
etc etc
but what is perfection for you?
TOK rule can't remember what
"what you see isn't what I see"

Me: still, we are trying to reach perfection

Billy: because isn't that human nature

Nee: it is also human nature to sleep. so I’m going to go sleep :)

Me: HAHAHA

Nee: good night you guys!

Me: alright, Nee, night!

Billy: haha
so u see
human nature plays a big rule in our life
I think I need bed to
I’ll see you in the morning
night - God bless
:)

Me: night Billy :)

----
[#], referring to a person
Morrie, referring to the professor in the book Tuesdays With Morrie by Mitch Albom

Sound of Silence

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.

Fools said I, you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whispered in the sounds of silence.


Lyrics by Paul Simon and Art Garfunkel

Watch the thing here.